The man who called me “Lady C”

Posted on March 4, 2016 by

Today I was both overjoyed and heartbroken within an hour.

I saw a clip of my good friend Mark Allen Sims on TV. Due to a nasty divorce he had been made homeless. When I saw him, singing on TV I paused it immediately and jumped up, telling my boyfriend what a kind soul he was. I made it my mission to watch the show he was on before I went to bed. ( Shelter from the Storm)

While he was on TV, I thought I’d check his Facebook, he had taken it down a few times, but I figured that was to hide from his crazy ex. Little did I know, the reason I hadn’t heard from him was because he passed away during heart surgery on September 28,2015.

Mark and I met at the opening of Denny’s in Okotoks. He was the line cook and I was a waitress. Within a few days he christened me “Lady C,” and since then it stuck.  I had been working as an amateur photographer for sometime, and he asked me to come down and take some photos of a local event called “The Jam,” a jazz collaboration with several local, talented artists. What he didn’t know was I could sing too. I got up to the microphone, one of the few white girls in the room, and spat out a jazz rendition of “rocking around the Christmas Tree. ” I can still hear him yelling from the top floor, “oh snap! lady C can sing!!!!”

After that we would get together and sing and chat, he was like an uncle, a kind soul who only wanted your company and an ear to listen. Anytime he had a job on his food truck he’d ask me to come waitress. He couldn’t pay much at all, but we always worked well together and it was nice to get out and find new ways to battle my PTSD. 

After his last marriage ruined him, he requested to visit more, and I am ashamed to admit that I was so busy modelling that I put him off more often than not. He had told me about his heart surgery, and I had every intention of going to visit, but I was so caught up in life that I simply forgot. Mark passed away 6 months ago and I had no idea.

So my lesson to all of you, pay attention to those who ask for your help, for your company. Many people love you if you’d just look up from your life and acknowledge it. I’m sorry I didn’t get to say goodbye big guy. But I will always be Lady C, to you, and to anyone who asks. May you light up the heavens with your beautiful voice, rest in peace sweet soul. 

Here are some photos I took of mark, doing what lit his soul up. In loving memory of Mark Sims

   
    
    
 

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Poem to PTSD

Posted on February 24, 2016 by

There are times I can’t seem to find

The weapon to quiet the demons in my mind,

How they torment and dance in my head,

Typically just before I go to bed

And throughout the night as I sleep,

They continue though I weep

I pray to God every night

Please protect me from this fright
Carolynne Scoffield 2016

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Musical Chairs of Death

Posted on January 2, 2016 by

The older I get, the one thing I learned as a child is constantly playing through my head… 

“There’s only one guarantee in this life, and that is death.”

Sometimes I feel like we’re all playing a giant game of musical chairs, in the background we can all hear, “pop goes the weasel,” play on repeat. Suddenly, the music stops, and we clamber for a chair to sit in. But some aren’t so lucky. Some don’t make it in time to get to a chair. And consequently, we lose those some to the cold kiss of death. I begin to cry, and the music starts again and we are forced to our feet and continue marching around in a circle. However, the circle just keeps getting smaller and smaller, until we are the one without any seat…

  

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LADIES! Want the best ass in town!? 

Posted on December 25, 2015 by

Yes, working out will give you a great derrière, but how do you get one without all that effort at the gym? The answer is simple, and it’s online, and it’s here in Calgary

FREDDY PANTS!

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So what makes these pants so special? Well besides the fact that my man loves the way my posterior looks in them, I constantly receive compliments from other women in regards to the appearance of the junk in my trunk. These pants are so much more than just pants, there’s science and technology applied to the fashion. The WR.UP line is described on Freddys official website: 

The WR.UP® technology is the result of an accurate research, certified by numerous exclusive patents, and, among others, it includes:

– a silicon strip inserted inside the belt to improve adherence to belt line;

– an ultralight silicon membrane, inserted in the hip/thigh area, for a modelling effect;

– an insert on the buttocks with a special anatomic and curved shape, designed especially to produce a push-up effect;

– a special conformation of the crotch that, together with the materials and seams used, adheres perfectly to the line between the buttocks producing a further push-up effect

So what does that all mean? The silicone in the waist prevents the pants from sliding down and showing that ever feared “Plummer butt.” The silicon membrane in the thighs tightens them and makes them more taught and fit looking. And the last two points simply illustrate how the butt push up is created. We started with push up bras, finally someone made us push up pants. 

By now you’re probably surfing the web to see all the designs, and may gasp when you see the price, but let me put it this way. I got my first pair of Freddys 3 years ago, I still have them and they still look fierce. I rarely wear any other pants but Freddy. They also have workout wear, fashion wear and men’s wear. So tell me again why you want a pair of $70 jeans that don’t make you stand out, when you could have a pair that will make you the envy of the girls, and the desire of the guys. 

Also, unlike many brands that are now mass produced in China, Freddy have amazing quality control coming from one facility in Italy. I don’t know about you, but knowing I’m getting clothing from a quality, European supplier gives me not only a feeling of confidence but a sense of luxury. 

Got a bunch of Christmas/ Hanukkah money and want to go clothes shopping? Skip the stores that put out the stuff that didn’t sell all year, go to the place that sells out, is top quality, and will last you a lifetime. 

Don’t like shopping online? No problem! Head to Chinook mall, upper level 2 doors down from the Saucy Bread Company. 

You’re welcome ladies. Now go shop!  

 
Photos by

Top and main Pablo B

Bottom Andras Schram

Hair and Makeup Tara Smith 

Clothing by Freddy

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Featured on Calgary Bride’s Blog

Posted on December 23, 2015 by

Take a look here for more about this shoot  

Unchained Melody- by Calgary Bride
 
Special thanks to Lynn Fletcher Weddings, Scott Gage Photography, Heritage Park, Cameo and Cufflinks, Trena Laine Makeup artist, Catherine Hazin Calgary Bride and so many more! 

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Ode To My Beautiful Golden Puppy

Posted on December 7, 2015 by

Today I found out that tomorrow, my parents will take our almost-14yr old yellow Labrador to be put down to sleep.

Naturally when I heard this it broke my heart. I know it needs to be done, she’s old and starting to suffer. But I can’t help but remember all the sweet times we had…

1. When we drove her home from the breeder and she had that cute little yowl 

2. I bathed her as soon as we got home  

 3. She kept yowling so I brought her kennel in my bedroom so she could sleep by me. 

4. I let her have my big Santa teddy when she was about 12 weeks old. She always cuddled that. And we always played tug of war in the kitchen  

 
5.  Her favourite game was “steal the tv remote/ dads shoe/ and watch us chase her like mad people, all the while having this expression  

 
6. We went for a walk and she dragged me 200m across a field and stopped at my charm bracelet I’d lost a few weeks ago. 

7. She adored her walks with mum 

…….

After I almost died and my face was torn apart, it was Gemma who helped ease me back into being around dogs. She would approach me so slowly, nudge me with her head and lick my face, then push her head under my arm so that I would hold her. I’ll never forget what you did for me puppy.

  
Gemma, mum and dad loved you, Chris and his kids loved you,

   
  and you even stole the hearts of the Manitoba family when you ran free on Clarke farm for a bit.

  
We’ll always love you my girl, and no matter what, you’re a good dog gemma. Such a good dog. I’ll be there tomorrow to say my goodbye to you my sweet golden pup. I hope there’s lots of chew bones in heaven 

I love you Gemma x   

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The Setting Sun

Posted on November 12, 2015 by

After 2 years of glamour here in Calgary, I feel my spotlight drastically fading. What’s worse is I never really got to taste the full opportunity. 

When something comes along and rips up your face it tends to limit what one can accomplish. But I bounced back,4yrs later,  it seems I made it just in time.

But I feel like my modelling career is starting to take on the anxiety and irony of how one feels when you show up to a shoot with only a few hours sun left… Time is running out. Suddenly the under eyes from working and writing are much harder to hide, I have to be more strict with my skin regime because I’m getting wrinkles. My “Virgin hair” finally started getting dyed now at 30 because I am no longer impenetrable by grey hair.

I know with bridal and lifestyle, maybe even the make fashion crowd,  I might be able to land the odd gig, but let’s face it, I was at my peak last year, and in fashion you have to be of the moment. I feel like I’ve been cast into the shadows while the younger, more fresh models get to spread their wings.

And a part of me is ok with that. I know the people I adore working with will continue to collaborate with me, and I may even add some new connections, but needless to say, within the next couple years, the sun will set on my modelling career.

But to everyone who helped me get here, thank you. 3hrs in the sun is better than a lifetime of darkness. And no matter where I go after, I will always take that light with me, knowing I can do it, as long as I believe in myself, even when no one else would. 

I am by no means throwing in the towel, I’m just being real. I mean, I’m 30, that’s like 50 in model years (lol inside model joke) 

So to the young up and comers, embrace your spotlight, be kind to those helping you and be wary of those who would do you harm. I hope you all get to feel the prestige I have for the last few years, and who knows maybe even another :) 

Work it girls! You only get one chance! 

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