Category Archives: angel

Saying goodbye to my best friend

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Dream Within a Dream

Some say the dead visit them when they sleep… But what if it’s actually US visiting them? I have this theory…. Since having PTSD I have several recurring nightmares. I compare these to my own personal hell. Once in a … Continue reading

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Random Acts Of Kindness

Karma acted fast on this one. “I always could depend on the kindness of strangers” -Blanche Dubois ( A Streetcar Named Desire-Tennessee Williams” Yesterday I drove to the store (on my spare tire, I got a flat the previous night) … Continue reading

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Nightmares

Since acquiring PTSD almost 5years ago, I am plagued by nightmares every night. Even when I jolt out of bed from one, I fall back asleep, and and right back in the same scenario, same dream. It’s like even reality … Continue reading

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Ghosts of Christmas Past

I remember more than ever, today, when Christmas was a different way. 2001 was the last clarke Christmas I remember us all together. And it will never be the same. This year our family took a huge hit… We lost … Continue reading

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Devastation

I was born shortly after the tornado devastated Barrie, Ontario in 1985. This year, nature decided to remind me and the residents of high river just how destructive she can be. I was working in Okotoks in the pouring rain. … Continue reading

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Flawed Design

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading

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