Category Archives: anxiety

Pregnant, PCOS, and PTSD

About 3 months ago I discovered, to my shock, that I was pregnant. This is how I found out, and how it’s affected me since. I went to my doctors because I felt the PTSD surging with a vengeance. I … Continue reading

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Alone on New Years Eve

You hear about it for weeks before it happens, you see all the facebook statuses the day of, everyone planning their parties with groups of friends, or couples and families staying in and thankful for what they have. And then … Continue reading

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Mental Medication Mishaps

How many of you suffer from mental illness? How many of you take medication for it? And of those who take meds, how many of you forget to take them, or try to ween yourself off? And why? I’ve heard … Continue reading

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Broken

There comes a time at the end of every arduous battle, that one must say “enough is enough” and call it quits. I reached that point last night. Some of you may remember my boyfriend cheated on me, for the … Continue reading

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Nightmares

At almost 30yrs old I still am plagued by nightmares. I know what you think, it’s just a dream. But you don’t see what I see. Sometimes I’m terrified to sleep, sometimes I just beg to sleep ’cause I’m so … Continue reading

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Flawed Design

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading

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Are You Mental?

Do you have any idea what it’s like to have a mental illness? Or even worse (which is most of us) a few mental illnesses running a muck on your scattered little brain? PTSD, depression, and a dose of masochistic … Continue reading

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To My Uncle, From Your Niece.

This is for a man, who started a boy. A young, wirey, whip of a lad born in England. I can see the picture now. He was 2… I think? My mum is almost 1 or maybe a newborn. Her … Continue reading

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Kinder Surprise Eggs

Dating is the exact same thing as buying kinder surprise eggs. You go in with good intentions, looking at the picture of the prize on the wrapper. You get through the sweet, choclatey layers and find an egg! Oh the … Continue reading

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