Category Archives: disturbing

Dark Beauty

“- though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me.” 23rd Psalm Since I can remember I’ve been fascinated with the concept of death. What happens after? Where … Continue reading

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Depression

I stand in the shower, naked and numb. Not just from some unearthly cold, but also inside my soul. One by one my feelings of trust in humanity deplete. And I’m left shivering under the boiling waters embrace as it … Continue reading

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Nightmares

At almost 30yrs old I still am plagued by nightmares. I know what you think, it’s just a dream. But you don’t see what I see. Sometimes I’m terrified to sleep, sometimes I just beg to sleep ’cause I’m so … Continue reading

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Flawed Design

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading

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Are You Mental?

Do you have any idea what it’s like to have a mental illness? Or even worse (which is most of us) a few mental illnesses running a muck on your scattered little brain? PTSD, depression, and a dose of masochistic … Continue reading

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High River: Don’t believe the propaganda

Since the flood this year, High River has been obliterated. Although Calgary and other areas were hit, it seems as though the news outside the province only highlights on the loss to “Calgary, or Alberta” in general. Let me tell … Continue reading

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Pathetic lack of empathy

Today, I witnessed yet another atrocity. Someone I know, not well, but enough to respect his position, was purposely rude, sarcastic, and downright cruel to a innocently sweet and aspirational young man. Granted the young man did not seem to … Continue reading

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