Category Archives: pain

FOREVER R.E.D

A dark cloud of sadness resides over the fashion community of Calgary today, as we say goodbye to one of our own. The incomparably talented Ruby Ellen Johnson, age 51, designer and owner of Ruby Ellen Designs passed away this … Continue reading

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Broken

There comes a time at the end of every arduous battle, that one must say “enough is enough” and call it quits. I reached that point last night. Some of you may remember my boyfriend cheated on me, for the … Continue reading

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To My Uncle, From Your Niece.

This is for a man, who started a boy. A young, wirey, whip of a lad born in England. I can see the picture now. He was 2… I think? My mum is almost 1 or maybe a newborn. Her … Continue reading

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Anger Management

I get it, you’re pissed off at life. Most of us are. But when you stop focusing on what is ruining you and start to focus on what could possibly fix you, there is in fact an end to the … Continue reading

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Pathetic lack of empathy

Today, I witnessed yet another atrocity. Someone I know, not well, but enough to respect his position, was purposely rude, sarcastic, and downright cruel to a innocently sweet and aspirational young man. Granted the young man did not seem to … Continue reading

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To the little girl in the Emergency Room

from May 20th, 2013… To the lovely little girl who was in emerg with me and who was bit by a pit bull. Sweetheart I know you’re scared, you’re such a brave girl! It’s ok to be scared, you have … Continue reading

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Flawed perfection

You say you want me wild That beautiful top model But truth is I’m scared to death Staring at the bottom of the bottle Drowning in my own tears I ease the pain Substance to substitute fears but what do … Continue reading

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