Category Archives: PTSD

Dream Within a Dream

Some say the dead visit them when they sleep… But what if it’s actually US visiting them? I have this theory…. Since having PTSD I have several recurring nightmares. I compare these to my own personal hell. Once in a … Continue reading

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Lone Wolf

Wolves are one of the few mammals that are monogamous even after their mate dies. No matter what relationship I’m in, I never feel like we’re a team. I always feel like it just me and him, not we, or … Continue reading

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Broken

There comes a time at the end of every arduous battle, that one must say “enough is enough” and call it quits. I reached that point last night. Some of you may remember my boyfriend cheated on me, for the … Continue reading

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Ghosts of Christmas Past

I remember more than ever, today, when Christmas was a different way. 2001 was the last clarke Christmas I remember us all together. And it will never be the same. This year our family took a huge hit… We lost … Continue reading

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Nightmares

At almost 30yrs old I still am plagued by nightmares. I know what you think, it’s just a dream. But you don’t see what I see. Sometimes I’m terrified to sleep, sometimes I just beg to sleep ’cause I’m so … Continue reading

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Flawed Design

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading

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