Category Archives: PTSD

Lonely

Why is it, as adults, we can feel completely independent at all times, until we get sick…. You wake up alone and in pain, your head and chest feel like they’re caving in. You need water, tissues, cough medicine, and … Continue reading

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STOP MAKING STUPID PEOPLE FAMOUS

First of all, before I say anything, I would like to preface this by saying:  “I support all LGBT and have for years.” That being said, people have sex changes every day and it doesn’t dominate the media for days … Continue reading

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Dream Within a Dream

Some say the dead visit them when they sleep… But what if it’s actually US visiting them? I have this theory…. Since having PTSD I have several recurring nightmares. I compare these to my own personal hell. Once in a … Continue reading

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Lone Wolf

Wolves are one of the few mammals that are monogamous even after their mate dies. No matter what relationship I’m in, I never feel like we’re a team. I always feel like it just me and him, not we, or … Continue reading

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Impending Death

I have had a constant, lingering fear of death since I was around 14. Like I could feel it everywhere, it seemed to follow me wherever I went. The amount of close calls I have had is alarming. I’ve: -fallen … Continue reading

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Mental Medication Mishaps

How many of you suffer from mental illness? How many of you take medication for it? And of those who take meds, how many of you forget to take them, or try to ween yourself off? And why? I’ve heard … Continue reading

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It’s not you, it’s me.

There was a time in my life where I fought for men’s attention. That time was my entire life up until the Rottweiler attack. After that I learned all too well how to hide from people, until this blog… And … Continue reading

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