Category Archives: scars

Calgary Crime

Once again I am victim to Calgary’s growing crime rate. This time much more impactful than the last. I awoke this morning to my neighbour calling through my window, “hello! Are you home!? Someone smashed in your window last night … Continue reading

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Broken

There comes a time at the end of every arduous battle, that one must say “enough is enough” and call it quits. I reached that point last night. Some of you may remember my boyfriend cheated on me, for the … Continue reading

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Depression

I stand in the shower, naked and numb. Not just from some unearthly cold, but also inside my soul. One by one my feelings of trust in humanity deplete. And I’m left shivering under the boiling waters embrace as it … Continue reading

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Nightmares

Since acquiring PTSD almost 5years ago, I am plagued by nightmares every night. Even when I jolt out of bed from one, I fall back asleep, and and right back in the same scenario, same dream. It’s like even reality … Continue reading

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Ghosts of Christmas Past

I remember more than ever, today, when Christmas was a different way. 2001 was the last clarke Christmas I remember us all together. And it will never be the same. This year our family took a huge hit… We lost … Continue reading

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Flawed Design

God had a wicked sense of humour when he breathed life into my soul. He gave me every gift a girl could dream of… And one curse. Allow I may appear pretty, talented, and as many have told me in … Continue reading

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To the little girl in the Emergency Room

from May 20th, 2013… To the lovely little girl who was in emerg with me and who was bit by a pit bull. Sweetheart I know you’re scared, you’re such a brave girl! It’s ok to be scared, you have … Continue reading

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