Tag Archives: depression

To My 14yr Old Self

I would’ve written this to you at 13, but you were still happy with yourself then, even though you had a horrible haircut and buck teeth, you were still your own person. At 14 I lost you, and I’m writing … Continue reading

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Depression

I stand in the shower, naked and numb. Not just from some unearthly cold, but also inside my soul. One by one my feelings of trust in humanity deplete. And I’m left shivering under the boiling waters embrace as it … Continue reading

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The Broken Doll

Broken doll on the wall Sits up so high Everyone thinks she’s happy But they don’t know why Why her porcelain skin is cracked And her smile no longer straight You can glue her back together But you can’t change … Continue reading

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Are You Mental?

Do you have any idea what it’s like to have a mental illness? Or even worse (which is most of us) a few mental illnesses running a muck on your scattered little brain? PTSD, depression, and a dose of masochistic … Continue reading

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Down the rabbit hole

It’s official, I’m falling. Deep, down, the symbolic rabbit hole. It’s like there’s never a bottom, and every time I think “I can’t get any lower,” down I plummet, further and further into the abyss. I could scream, but either … Continue reading

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Loneliness

“How to fight loneliness, i smile all the time” -wilco Being alone isn’t so bad when the TV is on or the music is playing, but 3 days without meds and silence is an anthem to slit your wrists to. … Continue reading

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High River: Don’t believe the propaganda

Since the flood this year, High River has been obliterated. Although Calgary and other areas were hit, it seems as though the news outside the province only highlights on the loss to “Calgary, or Alberta” in general. Let me tell … Continue reading

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